that girl…
Its happened tumblr folk, I have become that sterotypical girl. You know her, the one that dates the douche bag and not the nice guy. Yeah! that girl! I never really thought I’d be her ya know? I mean isn’t that what we want to think of ourselves, as the ones who always get it right. But right now I have a guy who is head of heels crazy about me, treats me like the princess I’ve always thought I was, and yet, I didn’t stay in bed with him. He was there to talk when I needed him today, knew I needed it before I even did, and yet, he’s not the one I choose. I choose the guy who everyone thinks is a douche, a womanizer, the guy I was warned about. But they don’t see what I see, they don’t see the sweetest side that I do. Since day one, its been easy. Being with him, lying in his arms, it was all effortless, and above all, it felt right. And so while my brain may want to lead my heart in another direction, my heart ain’t havin it. And so here I go, being that girl who doesn’t date the nice guy, looks like we’ll have to see how it goes…

And now is time for me to figure my shit out…
I like him, a lot, and while everyone (and I do mean everyone) tells me he’s a douche and I should watch out, I can’t help myself, I keep falling for him. Turns out, they’re right, sorta… he made a douche move, I mean really, you have to sleep with some dumb drunk beezy the one night I don’t see you, and the night before you leave for 6 weeks, like, get real bro! Yet, I’m not hurt by this. I should be. I should be done with him, yet I still can’t wait for him to come back, to hold his hand, to cuddle, for things to feel right again. But I’m not the only one who knows, in fact, most people know and no one had the balls to tell me. And that’s what gets me, people try to protect you by making you always the last to know. But that doesn’t protect you, in the end you’re just hurt by everybody. And that’s what gets me, he didn’t tell me, if didn’t have the man parts to come out and saw it. Yet again, we aren’t official. I don’t truly know what he considers me, what he considers us, so can I truly be upset, do I have that right.
Now is the time for me to figure my shit out, I got 3 weeks. So here goes nothing…








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